I held his hand tightly, pressed up against the car’s stick shift
The highway blurred around us
As I turned my head to mumble:
“Life is better sharing your life with someone.”
I’ll never forget what my man of few words responded:
“Isn’t that the point?”
destinyzwatkins said: Well darling, you can always talk to me. My dad passed away with cancer a while back and my grandad is going through it now. You can come to me with anything and everything. I won't judge or speak unless you want me to. Lots of love. xo
Thank you so much for your kind words. I’m sorry that you’ve gone through this too. I look forward to the day when no one has to go through this.
Do you ever feel helpless? Like you can’t do anything for it?
My Mom doesn’t think she’ll last five more years with this cancer.
It’s hard to hear that.
I wrote an email for her, saying she couldn’t make it to this summer’s high school reunion.
"Mom, just say, I hope to see you at the next one."
She gave me a look. The look that said everything without a single word being uttered besides, “Well…”
She’s mentioned recently, with this new trial drug she might get, some cancer patients last up to two years.
If she gets it, instead of the placebo. And if it’s lucky for her.
No one knows. I wish I had people to talk about this with, but I never want to be a downer for my boyfriend and friends.
And so, I’m here. Writing this.
When you’re in love,
All the little details matter
You remember what songs came on when they put their IPod on shuffle
Their favorite outfits that clung to them
The foods they can’t live without
Their parents names, their dream jobs, the car they picked you up in
You remember how they looked when they smiled, and how many times you thought about them when you tried to sleep
I’ve had friends, who never forget those things - even after parting ways
For me, it has taken years,
But it has slowly faded away
Disappearing ink that was once our story
I remember he existed. I remember I loved him.
But I don’t remember him. And I don’t want to.
Your life doesn’t suck; you’re just letting your current circumstances overwhelm you. You’re okay. You are going to be okay.
To get your boyfriend to appreciate you (or at least verbalize it or show his romantic side more)
Do you pull back on communication, the sweet gestures, etc?
Or do you just continue loving him with all you have?